The people who hurt me don't matter. The people who once judged me don't matter. The people who still judge me don't even matter! None of those people get to live my life. I lost weight for myself! I did this for myself because I wanted to be a happier person and be a better mom, a better wife, a better daughter, and a better friend to the people who do matter.
The point of this post is truly to emphasize that even if you are a broke mom like me, you do not need money to start your weight loss journey.
It took me a full year of working on myself to be fully inspired- but in January 2017 I had a plan, I had intention, and I was ready! I started by creating a set of important goals. I kept track of every step along the way- recipes, stories, workouts, calories, ideas. Now I realize these steps that I have been tracking can be followed by anyone.
Binge eating is not the same as eating an extra piece of cake at a party or going back for seconds at dinner time. It is a life threatening disorder that involves eating large quantities of food, quickly, to the point of discomfort. Like me, most people with binge eating disorder feel a lot of shame and guilt for this.
The beautiful view of nature as far as the eye could see brought me to tears the first time I hiked up Round Valley. It was late March and the hills were completely green, wildflowers were blooming, the sky was perfect, and the trees looked like a painting. I cried for the beauty all around me, but also because of so much more. I cried because life had just thrown many difficult hurdles at me, the biggest one being that I lost my job the day before. I cried because I was exhausted. I was 250 pounds the first time I did that hike. It was so strenuous for me. However, above all, I cried because I was proud of myself.